This is my confession…
Two weeks ago I hosted a party at my home with a few of my girlfriends and we had a blast! Lots of food and lots of wine. Despite my better judgment when I was party planning, I decided to not make all Paleo foods but rather, I made traditional appetizers of focaccia, brie and fondue. Delish right? It was! And it was again the next morning as I indulged my hung-over self in the plate of brie! And I continued to do so for the next 3 days. Grabbing a handful of rosemary focaccia crackers here and there and maybe a slice of garlic French bread on my way out the door. And guess what? I spent the next week curled up in a ball, once again relying on pharmaceuticals to get me through the day.
My negative attitude had returned and I began to pout and feel sorry for myself about wasting the entire week due to my “stupid lupus”. I pouted because had I disappointed myself and I felt as if disappointed you and my family. I pouted because I didn’t get the garden cleaned up and tilled under. I pouted because I didn’t get the chicken coop cleaned or barn ready for a load of hay before the ground got rained on and the grass got too soft to drive the tractor on. I pouted because I didn’t get a single load of laundry done and I only cooked 1 meal for my family… in seven days! I had just completely wasted my week due to my poor choices to eat to foods that I knew were harmful to my body. And I pouted because I did the same thing just 2 months ago, landing my sorry butt in the hospital.
And do you know what all that pouting got me? Validation! Validation that living a Paleo lifestyle is exactly what my body requires to stay upright and healthy. I was once again reminded of how awesome eating clean makes me feel. So this is my confession and I’m sorry. I am human. I have slips but I also have a brain and I better start using it!
Today is a new day. Today is a Paleo focused day and a weekly meal prep day. And tomorrow will be a great day.
I so know how you feel and have suffered with my lupus when I stray from the foods I know I should eat and give into the temptation of the foods I shouldn’t eat. I’m with you on treating ourselves through diet, healthy living, and alternative choices vs. pharmaceuticals. So nice to see someone that feels the same.
Valorie,
Its a battle for sure! However I’m so thankful for the power of real food and essential oils! Thank you for commenting. I love your blog. Your grainfree cacao granola bars look delish!.
Truly,
Katie